The Night The Clock Hit 12:07 6 Episode 5
How do people know when they're in love? Like genuinely head over heels in love with someone.
What is the difference between love and liking someone? How do they differentiate the two?
Sure, we've heard about b.u.t.terflies, we've heard about having continuous thoughts of them, but does that mean you're in love?
I want to know the feeling of being genuinely in love. I want to wake up to "good morning beautiful" along with a kiss on the forehead. I want someone to show me off to their friends and say, "I hit the jackpot with finding her". I want his friends to be jealous of our relationship. I want to wait for him to come home and ask about his day and he'll tell me all about his horrible boss.
I look up at the bookshelf full of books in my room, "I don't want to be a damsel in distress, to fall in love. I can slay the dragon on my own. But maybe we can fall in love by slaying the dragon together?"
I sigh as I look back at my computer.
Hara: Hey? You still there?
Hara: h.e.l.llooooooo
Hara: Bruh you're always going afk
Miki: Oh! I'm sorry, I had to do something irl and got distracted.
Hara: Huh? Okay whatever you say
Miki: Uh what's with the att.i.tude? You asked me to hang out
Hara: Yeah but you making me wait, no one makes me wait for them unless I agree lol
Times like these I don't know why I have a potential crush on him. He's rude and arrogant. He thinks everything revolves around him. Other females let him talk to them this way and that's why he things it's okay to do that. But not me
Miki: Ummm no, if you wanted to talk to me, you should be willing to wait
Hara: Lol whatever you say chica
Is this love? No matter how rude he is, no matter how many females he talk to, no matter how conceded he is; I can't tell him to f.u.c.k off and not have "b.u.t.terflies". If it really is b.u.t.terflies.
Maybe I think I'm attracted to him because he's the first guy to show me attention. Maybe he actually likes me? Maybe I'm just another notch in his belt of a girl gullible of thinking he feels something for him.
I pm my best friend Spy
Miki: Uggggh I'm so angry right now, why am I so dumb??
Spy: Hara? Isn't it
Miki: Who else?
Spy: Look I told you to leave him alone and don't listen to his sly talk. He's no good!
Miki: I know I know you told me but for some reason I feel like I have to protect him, like he needs me
Spy: Sigh are you sure it's not because you want to fall in love and he's the first guy to actually talk to you on a serious note?
She always. .h.i.t right on the point...how do she know these things...but maybe she's wrong, maybe he actually feels something for me.
Miki: you're probably right
Spy: But you're not going to listen to me, are you ?
Miki: Lol maybe
Spy: Just don't get hurt okay? If he hurts you , I'm killing him myself
Miki: Lmao will do