I Was Reincarnated Chapter 25
Greatest Level of Selfishness (R-18)
Revised (by author, also Rune's side and *R-18* at the end)
"Rune, don't cry"
He rubbed my back
While clinging onto Shin-sama, we can't be separated
Since I have divine protection, I should be fine even if attacked
However, scary things are scary
It's the first time I knew knights could use magic
I felt envious before when Shin-sama and Dea went out just the two of them, and couldn't hold back mentioning my loneliness
Because of that, today I am being taken to town
Shin-sama said we were at castle town, but it's quite a bustling town
It's bigger than all the towns I've been to until now
Expensive looking stores line the street
Shin-sama went shopping and bought everyone presents
Although you can say that castle town has a lot of good things, consequently the price is high
Everything cost a staggering amount of gold coins
Since we had the opportunity to get food too in town, we bought quite a bit
The number of people in the castle excluding Shin-sama is 25
He's sending the food off each time he buys more, but it's probably quite a bit
Rona's probably quite surprised
This time he's also bought quite a few books
Since elves have a wealth of knowledge, they certainly like to study…….
Seeing Shin-sama buy things for Dea, I was jealous
"Rune, is there anything you want?"
Even though he asked, there was nothing that I wanted
I shook my head, and―
"Rune's got no greed, huh"
He pat my head
What I want, is to spend time together with Shin-sama
Spending some time, just the two of us
Rau is there, and lately Dea is there……
Whenever that happens I am jealous, and Shin-sama seemed to realize that
Even though I'm not jealous when he's together with Rau, when he's together with Dea I can't help being jealous
Since today it's just the two of us, I'm happy, but it's just for now
I can't say I want to be together
Since it is my selfishness
When I say I'm hungry, we go into an expensive looking store
The food sent out are all super extravagant things, either way they're delicious
Sitting on top of Shin-sama's lap, he feeds me like he does with Rau
At that time the knights came in
Moreover, three of them
Knights are scary
Shin-sama was not especially impatient and spoke in his usual way
When they attacked with a sword, when they attacked with magic, Shin-sama easily defended
I couldn't move due to fear, but once Shin-sama became angry and killed the knight I finally managed to call out Shin-sama's name
Hugging me close and patting my head, Shin-sama is gentle just like usual
While tightly clinging onto him, we returned to the castle
Scary, so scary……
My tears won't stop
Without being able to bear separating from Shin-sama, I desperately clung onto him the whole time
Shin-sama gently called out to such a me and pat my head
"We're in my room, that scary guy is no longer around"
The entire time he was saying that, he gently pat my back and head
After a while I calmed down a bit and could separate from him
The moment we parted I felt fear and clung to him again
"I understand, today we'll be together, I'll tell everyone so, though no one even knows we're back yet"
Since we directly teleported to the room, we haven't met with anyone
Though if we continued like this everyone would surely worry
However―
"Don't want-! Don't go"
I clung on to him more and more strongly
"Don't go to Dea's place"
The words I didn't intend to say came out
Since I've already said it there's nothing I can do, even though I've continued to endure it up to now
However, I don't want him to go near Dea, especially for today
Although it's just my selfishness, I want him to not go at least for today
A few days ago, Shin-sama embraced Dea (TN: they did it)
Therefore, all I could think of was him together with Dea and was jealous
……even though Shin-sama is not my thing
Even though he's not even my lover
"……I'm just going to inform them"
I shook my head while crying
The me of right now is speaking extremely selfishly
However, I can't stop
I can't release this hand
"Separating, from Shin-sama, that…..don't want-!"
My words mingle with sobs, moreover while clinging to him, like that he continues to hold me
"Then, come together with me"
It seems we teleported with magic
Since my face is pressed into his shoulder I'm only guessing
However, it seems I'm not mistaken
Since I could hear Dea's voice
"Master? You've returned. What's happened to Rune?"
He voiced his concern for me
Even though I'm jealous of him, since Dea is kind, my heart hurts
"Since knights came and attacked, he's frightened. For today he'll stay beside me. Rune, what will you do for meals?"
What we were eating was lunch
However in order to eat a meal I'd have to separate from Shin-sama
I shook my head
Separating from Shin-sama is scary
"It's fine not to prepare meals for Rune today, tell Rona for me"
"Yes"
"Later, I'll send the presents to their own room, tell Rau and Rona for me"
"Understood"
"To my room"
After he simply finishes the conversation, we once again return to his room
"Change into pajamas"
The moment he says so, Shin-sama's clothes became simple dark blue clothes
"Rune, change into pajamas"
He changed my clothes as well
Yellow clothes like what Shin-sama usually wears as pajamas appear
"Rune, stop crying, we're in my room, are you scared even if it's just the two of us?"
I shook my head
When we're together it's not scary
Since I'm beside someone it's not scary
Separating from Shin-sama is scary though
"Rune, I'm here, so it's fine not to cling to me so desperately"
It seems I unconsciously put in quite a bit of strength
Slightly releasing some of the force, Shin-sama's fingers brushed away my tears
"Don't cry anymore, your eyes will become swollen"
However, no matter how much he wiped, my tears wouldn't stop
"What scared you? Knights? Me killing knights? Dying?"
"…….kni,ghts, however……. now, 's, different"
Since I'm crying, my sobs cut into my words
"What are you scared of?"
"….from Shin-sama, separating, is, scary"
"…..aren't I right here?"
Certainly, right now I'm inside Shin-sama's arms
However, that's just for now
While grasping onto Shin-sama's clothes he calmingly pat the head of me who would not part from him
I don't want him to treat me like a child like this
However, it seems I'm only saying childish things
"Don't come to like anyone either"
There's no way I'd think I could receive his love
I understand that he's not a person within my reach
Even so, that being the case I don't want him to like anyone else either
I don't want to see Shin-sama become lovers with someone else
"…..why did you bring that up?"
For Shin-sama, the talk must seem to be jumping around quite a bit
Even for me it's not something I can understand, I feel like our talk is slightly out of sync
"…..were you confused by too many things? Relax, the one I like the most is Rune"
He pat my head
'The one I like the most'
Those words bring a bit of relief
When I look up at Shin-sama, I see his usual gentle expression
"Were you jealous of Dea, as I thought, Rune is cute, huh"
He kissed me like he was pillaging my mouth
When I was kissed like that, power immediately left my body
When I leaned against Shin-sama (like I was entrusting my body to him), he laid me onto the bed
(Will he embrace me?)
Lately I can't help having that expectation
Since when it's just the two of us here we do so
Since Shin-sama only looks at me
He licked the tears by my eyes
After that he brushed back my hair
Since Shin-sama's hair fell down on top of my body I could smell a nice scent coming from it
Shin-sama uses magic to cleanup, due to not entering the bath very often
Giving a deep kiss, power left my body and I became hot
Shin-sama took off my clothes and removed his gloves, each time his hand slid over my body my voice leaked out
When Shin-sama embraces me, he's always gentle
I only ever feel a slight pain, it's almost all pleasurable feelings
It feels so good it's scary
Although I'm not in pain when embraced once, when he continuously keeps on embracing me it's a bit painful
Like when he continues to move even when I can't stand anymore for example
Or like when he doesn't finish even though I've already fainted
I'm happy when I'm together with Shin-sama, if I ever felt like I want to be embraced I feel like he wouldn't refuse
"Rune, today, is it fine to do it till morning?"
(Even though now is still afternoon……)
Although I think that, I can only nod
Tomorrow I probably won't be able to get up, but I willingly reach for it under his sweet pressure