I Was Reincarnated Chapter 23
The deeply Jealous, Foolish me
Rune side
(……nn?)
As I woke up Shin-sama who should be beside me wasn't there
(Where did he go?)
Having not yet slept enough, I rubbed my eyes as I got up
The time when Shin-sama is up is short
Even though he slept that much, he quickly went off to sleep again
Since he said to sleep in the room I'd been given, but if I did I wouldn't be able to sleep together with him like this
However since Shin-sama is gentle, if Rau or I feel lonely, he won't strongly refuse us
Today we even went into the bath together
Moreover, he once again let me dry his hair
Even though with Shin-sama's power it should be easy for him to dry his hair
Even though while washing it it was short, he restored the length especially for me
I'm seriously glad that Shin-sama is so gentle to me
Since a lot of new people were bought, I was a bit worried
If someone he was interested in appeared, won't I be cast aside…..
However, receiving such special treatment I felt relieved
I can only rely on Shin-sama
If he casts me aside, I honestly won't be able to continue
(Where did he go?)
Even though I waited, Shin-sama didn't return
Even though he's the type of person to immediately go sleep when he has free time…..
(Did he go to the garden?)
He said he bought them in order to watch how they lived
However it's the middle of the night, shouldn't everyone be asleep?
(Should I go look?)
When Shin-sama isn't there I can't calm down
Although I understand he isn't a person who would leave us behind and disappear, my uneasiness won't disappear
I leave Rau who is sound asleep and go out
(Hm? Not here….)
I peeked my face outside the castle, but Shin-sama wasn't there
It seems everyone is fast asleep, I can't hear any voices either
(Where is he? Inside the castle?)
Since he told me not to go into other rooms, the places I can go to are limited
The dining room and my room, I can also go to the courtyard, but no matter where I look he's not there
(Is he in a different room? Or else, is he outside?)
If that's the case, where did he go out to?
For a stroll?
(I wish he'd taken me along)
No, he said that knight put out a proclamation, so could he not bring me?
The knight, was scary
I once again returned back to the room
In the bed is only Rau, it seems Shin-sama hasn't returned yet
(I can't sleep)
My eyes stayed open
Since Shin-sama embraced me, it seems I became someone who easily succ.u.mbs to loneliness
In addition to that, being embraced like today the next day I have too many lonely thoughts
Although the previous time we were continuously together……
Though Shin-sama was just sleeping
(Should I go get some water to drink?)
I once again went downstairs
I opened the dining room door―
And I froze without thinking
Shin-sama was together with Dea
Moreover, he was patting his head (TN: Cheater! heh)
I instinctively stepped back and made a sound when I b.u.mped into the door
The two turned this way
I feel like I saw something I shouldn't have, and was suddenly uncomfortable
"Rune, what's wrong?"
Shin-sama was like normal
That, for some reason or another, was painful
"…..Since Shin-sama wasn't here……"
It seems I was a fool to spend all that time searching
He was wearing a veil and gaudy clothes, it seems he went out
And with Dea
(Did he prefer Dea?…..not me)
I can't say something like 'I don't like it'
Although I am Shin-sama's thing, Shin-sama is not mine
For me, I don't have the right to criticize Shin-sama's actions
…..However, seeing Shin-sama together with someone else is unpleasant
"Return to the room, Dea too hurry and go sleep, okay?"
(No, stop it…..)
He put his hand on Dea's head, and I can't look straight at them
Shin-sama walked towards me and grabbed my arm, the next moment we teleported to Shin-sama's room
"Change to pajamas"
His clothes changed to something simpler and the veil disappeared
"……the middle of the night like this, where did you go?"
With Dea, just the two of you…..
When did you two get that close?
Is it because I'm too childish and you've lost interest in me?
Such things were turning round and round in my head
Since I'm not Shin-sama's lover I don't have the qualifications to think such things
Shin-sama stared at me
(Does he think I'm annoying?)
I know he dislikes troublesome things
Am I hated?
"Jealous, huh, Rune is cute"
…..he pat my head
Is he not angry?
Is he only treating me as a child?
When I timidly look up at him, I see his smiling face
"Saying such a cute thing, shall I embrace you?"
(Eh!?)
Is he serious?
"…..Rau, is here….."
As one would expect I'm reluctant to do that in the presence of Rau
Although doing it in front of anyone would be unpleasant
"Then, another time"
Holding me in his arms he got into bed and went to sleep
Shin-sama always sleeps face up, but today he slept while holding me in his arms
After embracing me he'd sleep while holding me in his arms, but this is the first time he's done so without doing that first
Even though I'm relieved, I want to cry
Since my feelings are one sided
To Rau I said since he's a demon G.o.d he can't marry anyone, but even if Shin-sama wasn't a demon G.o.d I don't think he'd love
He'd only have pa.s.sing interest in people he cares about
It's probably for this reason that his previous existence was stabbed
(What sort of intentions did he have embracing me?)
He called me 'cute', but I don't understand what he was saying that about
I am a man, and an adult
There is not even a fragment of cuteness
Is it stupidity that I came to like a person who does not want it, is it just laughable?
Without thinking anything, is it strange for me to yearn for it?
Even though beastmen are called warriors, am I, a timid person who clings to Shin-sama, ridiculous?
It steadily becomes difficult to think
I am not a guy needed by Shin-sama
That, is sad
Such an I, is jealous, I can only think it laughable
However, I cannot stop the jealousy
―Since I like Shin-sama
"Dea's precious thing, we just went to recover it, it seems it was taken when he was captured by humans"
While holding me close he pat my head
It seems like he is coaxing an unreasonable child…..
(It's not because he is interested in Dea?)
Even if that's the case, I can't say anything though
A short time later, I could hear even breathing from Shin-sama
It seems he's already asleep
Even though I am wrapped in Shin-sama's arms I spent the night sleeplessly
Rune side end
TN: poor Rune, always so conflicted, worrying, but his worries seem rather legitimate….